Stars

"I imagine safety in the stars, 

cause you make so many wishes.." 

(rainer maria)

Things that are unattainable are always more valueable.

A star is alluring because it is thousands of miles away.

It is no different than that lamp on your nigthstand,

a lit candle,

electrical current.

Although not as glamourous to wish on.

Apparently they are for sale on the internet..

It won't fit into your pocket, 

Unscrew from it's power source,

Be contained...

It is in the Milky Way, 

Orbiting free of human control, 

Being moved by something much greater.

Grand gesture, habit,  serious superstitutions

Tired of dreaming of what is far away and out of reach..

Sending my wishes to my current, closest lightsource.

The end of my acrylic sun

Today I painted over my sun.

Since moving home, the upstairs bathroom has been an ongoing project of mine. 

It was originally done in a "siamese cat" theme, a vision of my mom's. 

It had to go.

After painting it sky blue and adjusting the mirror, I hit a plateau- relying on my brother and dad to finish some of the move heavy duty things.

One cold winter morning I started painting on the wall with the window. 

Season Affective Disorder was not going to beat me this year, I began working on a big sun shining over water. 

There is something reassuring about waking up and not having to bother looking out the window, because there is a huge sun shining on the wall. 

It changed my disposition.

It was a little heartbreaking covering up my water and reflections,

I really liked how it was coming along.

Color makes me feel alive.

Earlier this week I did some shopping and found some beautiful brown marble accents, and a dark brown curtain. 

The orange sun, although a beautiful complement to my blue walls, had run it's course.

Now, I rely on my window, shining into a beautiful reality, instead of imagination.